im nt okz

im nt okz,
im nt okz,
im nt okz,
im nt okz.
i refused 2 post happiz tingz since da last entry,
coz i noe da sad moment will b fast 2 follow.
n u totalli proved mi correct.
thkz u.

u dun love mi animore

but hu m i kidding?...

althgh its sunshine aft da rain n we r fine 4 now...

wat bout da future?...

im so affected by u....

im fine 1 moment n da nxt moment wen i tink more bout da matter, im nt...

sumhow i dun tink tt u love mi animore...

or tt u've love mi less...

which i cant take da latter in either waez too...

u've cease 2 care as much 4 mi....

im so confused...

im beginning 2 feel lik im nth 2 u....

u dun even bother 2 look into my FB profile...

care bout my FB status....

wen its so obvious, even to my frenz n ur bro, tt sumting is bothering mi...

im sure u cant possibly missed my status updates, wen even my frenz n ur bro hav noticed it, as it ll certainly b in da news feed in FB home page...

but yet, i hav realized tt u care bout others' status....

other galz' status....

n lets b fair....

r u certain tt u deleted awaez her fotox oly bcoz ur afraid tt i ll b mistaken?....

does it occurs 2 u tt it ll b beri obvious to mi wen i c tt u've care bout other galz's life instead of ur own gf's ones?...

looking back on my past FB status...

where it saez im tired, im stressed, im haggard, i omoz burnt down my hs, i nid u here, im feel lik dieing, i miss u, im sad, im angry, n even moz probably i wanna break wiv u...

but, nt a word of concern or comfort fm u.....

nth.......

r u sure u love mi?...

put aside tt....

wen i leave a post on ur wall, u din even care...

while ur so senstive 2 tt galz's status?...

r u sure u love mi?...

u dun even bother...

i doubt u ll even notice tis post either...

look at ur own fotox...look at our fotox...

did u notice tt u smile brighter wen u r takin ur fotox wiv her?....

mayb i cant blame u...

mayb u stil tot u love mi but u din realized u oreadi dun....

mayb u din realized tt u oreadi love another galz...

or mayb tt galz is attached so u might as well stick wiv ur old one...

is tt true?

i may seems strong but im nt...

u noe best wat kinda family i've cum fm...

i dun wanna b hurt da same waez....

i chose 2 act as if im fine 4 nw...

juz bcoz i love u....

but inside im hurting lik hell...

i seems fine wen ur ard but im crying 2 myself everytim wen im alone...

u tried 2 proved tt u still love mi by showering mi wiv gifts, but dun u noe tt's not wat i wan?...

u tried 2 prove tt u love mi by fetchin mi here n dere lik last timez, but din u notice u did it unwillingli now n hav shown mi tt ur irritated sumtimes?...

u tried 2 tell mi u love mi, but u din even notice ani changes tt i've made, nt even da obvious let alone da slightest, where even my moz distance frenz can tell...

its nt da actions, u muz understand, its da feeling...

tings r juz nt da same animore...

its nt juz bout da galz...

its everyting if u've realized...

im nt juz ur tools okz...

im waiting n seeing....

mayb our end is near....

pls prove 2 mi tt u stil love mi...

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**kessiz notez: love is so fragile... i dun tink i can trust love animore...

GO TO HELL PLS!!

F*CK U SERIOUSLI, F*CK U!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW DO I EVA TRUST U AGAIN, U TELL MI.

SCH SUX I NOE~

im SUPER BZ lately lahz!!!!...i tink u can tel coz i have not blogz 4 lik 1mth le....hahahha....
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ya its nt da first timez tt im complaining bout tis~~waaa everydaez is packed lik **HELL**....reli super duper bz tt i tink i can die under all tt stress le lorz!!....hahahhaha....i feel lik i have not been getting ani real sleep 4 a mth now, eva since aft da 1-week-super-insufficent -holidaez (which i literally wasted by staying at home, watching tv+vcd EVERYDEZ coz i sunburnt!!!~(x.x)...din even get 2 club even once during holidaez)....stress lehz~...
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===a summary of my past mth schedule===

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8-10: studying 10% accounting online quiz.....chiong lik mad lahz!!!....n i super angry lorz!!...tis quiz is super god damn difficult it DEFINATELY requires more dan 45min 2 complete lehz!!!...walau i seriousli dunoe how 2 do altgh i study liik mad~~pek chek...hahhaha...sumore reli no timez 2 complete lahz....aniwaez damn pek chek wiv da tutor oso...every other teachers give their class lik fm fridaez-sundaez nitez 2 do da test lorz....while SHE SHE SHE so last min inform us through online announcement tt we muz complete by sat nitez coz she no timez!!!!....walau walau walau~~~...
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9-11: ovrnitez @ grpmates hs to chiong IT ACCESS proj...waaa da teacher CCK #$^T^#$!*$! lehz!!...he throw us a beri difficult ACCESS proj while he din even reli taught us much bout it lorz....he juz wan us 2 figure out by ourselves....ya i agree tis may b a good teaching method sumtimez, but not wen we hav tons of other modules' projz which r much more impt+higher grade percentage dan tis but we muz waste super lottaz timez+effort on figuring tis stupid ACCESS tingy!!!!....sumore i heard other pep saez he is oly a part-time teacher lorz...a new one sumore!!...den dey saez wat he taught is lik totalli different fm other teachers lahz!!...gosh~~i tink we ll all die during da IT exam!!....
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13-16: pon da whole week of sch~~~~~~~YUP!......juz 2 finish up wateva tt i haben done so 4 tt stupid ACCESS proj plus do my business law 20% individual assignment!!!...waaaaa my grpmates ask mi do da *known bug* (which we wun noe wat it is unless ur noe ACCESS ba) plus da *technical user manual guide* (which is DAMN DIFFICULT 2 DO CAN!!!!!).....da known bug still okz....but i reli damn clueless bout da user manual lahz coz so limited info....aniwaez i crack my brain+waste super lottaz timez ovr figuring tis out tt i left no timez 4 my law projz lahz!!!!~~sobsob, seriousli feel lik cryig wen i tok bout tis~~da percentage of my individual law projz is double da ACCESS projz but yet i muz spend so much timez doing da latter coz its a GROUP projz!!!!!!....cannt dun do den sabo grpmates' grade maiz....so in da end i chiong lik mad 4 da law projz but reli cant finish lorz....it was completed, at least, but nt reli done (u get wat i meanz?)....i din even hav timez 2 check thru wat i hav written den i hav 2 submit le lorz....CRY!!!!...damn sad lorz 20% lehz!!...i hope da teacher ll b super lenient (which is unlikely)....
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16-20: chiong accounting projz!!....u muz b tinking, SO MANI PROJZ RITEZ!!!???....waaa was reli tire by den....coz u can see fm my schedule....da timing is continuous de!!...ritez aft 1 projz is submitted we hav 2 work on another straight awaez wivout resting!!....ahhhhhz wat kinda life is tis manz!....aniwaez i tink we did our best le!!....altgh nt beri well done too i tot~haiz.........
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22-25: doing ANOTHER IT PROJZ plus study 4 mondaez FM 10% test!!!!!.....walau another IT projz can u believe it!!!!....waaa seriousli hate IT lorz so mani projz...den we muz work our ass out 4 each one but da grade percentage dun tally de lorz, owaez much lesser dan wat our effort is worth~~.....ahhhz tinking bout da FM test, i was damn angry wiv myself!!!!....coz i cant fin studying 4 it, coz i keep playing wiv my niece or i ll b sleeping otherwise!!.....ahhhhhhzzzz.....haiz i tink i did beri badli 4 da FM test lorz coz i seriousli dunoe hw 2 do ehz.....i juz hope tt i can get at least a 30/40 can le......ahhhhz GOD GRANT MY WISH PLS!!!!!...
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26-3Nov: i shall still be working on our IT proj+presentation tingy plus studying 4 accounting test AGAIN!!!!!!!...pek chek~~~~
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ya see!!!!!....tis is da kinda life im living now!!!!....sux big timez manz!!!!....i juz wanna tell all those hu haben get into university but planning on going in~2 reli tink bout it seriousli b4 doing so.....or else ll sureli regret de lorz.....reli our everydaez timez is donated 2 da sch~~is either we r doing projz, or we r doing tutorials, or studying test....ya we still eat, but SLEEP!?...u hav 2 wait long long....
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**kessiz notez: ahhhz y did i get myself into tis kinda shit?...

korean hair+prettiznailzzz!!!~lol

YES!!
i spent da whole wed mornin+afternoon tryin out various hairdos+experimentin different colours on my nails.....n tis is da final productx which im most satisfied wiv

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KoReAn HaIrDo

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wHiTe n PiNk n ReD nAiLz!!!!!

v(^-^)v

**kessiz notez: ....okz okz, i admit tt another 1 fine daez is wasted~~~~

i look so young back den~~

ohz b4 we start~~
i was juz wondering whether shld i grow back my hair (left side) or maintain da bangs (ritez side)??
coz i miz my long straight hair soooooooo much tis few daez!!(/.\)....
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2daez i was arrangin my fotox n was looking thru those reli old ones, lik mani yrs back, den i realized how much i hav changed since den.....
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ohz u may nt hav notice changes coz u c urself everydaez in da mirror....but we r actualli aging DAILY n i guess pix reli shows!!!!!....ohz my~~
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==A TIMELINE OF MYSELF==

hahaha pix r arranged in such an order tt top is da oldest and bottom is da newest one n da last pix is 2yrs back......

hmmmm......dun wanna face up 2 reality...but i tink i reli look sooooo much younger back den~~
ahz i wanna turn back timez!!!!!
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**kessiz notez: or at least maintain current looks for da nxt 10yrs!!!!...hahahaha...

rAnDoM(^^)aCtIvItIeS

happiz~~

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SeLwYn LiM's ChInx3 Bd*19 Sep

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tt daez is memoriable!!(^^)....coz

1stly~ of course is chinx3 bd

2ndly~ all 3 of da guyx, YY quack+CK lim+KL lee, has juz POP-ed!!

3rdly~ gosh, I MISS ps+ahyu+sel+yang+kuai SO MUCH!!!!!!!

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no bluff i seriousli miz dem n all da super fun timez we hav wen we r in poly!!....haiz y do human hav 2 walk separate paths+leave comfort zone+venture into new zones+make new frenz all ovr again in life?...wun it b great if da whole big grp of frenz can juz all stay tgr in 1 big plc n do tingz tgr 4eva!!?...hmmm...

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hahahaha kkz aniwaez~we went Mind Cafe 4 dinner+games for 2hrs....ohz everyting is great, we hav fun (but da da other timez in holland v's settlers' cafe is nicer, n we tried beri hard 2 find da same game but cant find) n da food is nice (damn nicez in fact!!...ohz ur shld try da salad+beef lasagna+chocolate brownie!!..*lovelove*....4 sum1 hu dun reli lik brownie, other dan da swensenz brownie, da mind cafe brownie is 1 other which i cant resist!!), but 1 damn spolier juz spoils everyting 4 us~n tt is da waiter hu is assigned 2 serve our table tt daez!!!!

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GOD~he's damn ===IRRITATING===!!!!!.....his attitude super sucky, he dun smile wen he serve us, he keeps mumbling n xpect us 2 understand wat he's saying, n he even shows an irritated face wen we reli dun understand n ask him 2 repeat wat he saez!!....walau~~

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ahhhz y we hav 2b so suayz n get him while all da other servers seems sooooo nicez!!??...hahahaha...muz b quack yiyang+huiyu lahz!!...da "suay神" of +++BBClub+++ (muhahahha our grp name which = Bangs+Botak Club!!...LOL).....

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PIX TIME~~DA "CHUI" PIX

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botak+bo gey= not a good combi

i presume tt by nw u shld hav seriousli realize tt ur covering ur face for ovr 50% of all da fotoz taken ritez ah yu!?...nvber mind!!...u look ur best wiv ur face covered aniwaez!!....MUHAHAHAHA...DA NICEX PIX

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da bd boix~~~see no evil~hear no evil~speak no evil~

BB*CLUB(^^)v

aft minds', we went 4 movie in da new bugis shopping centre which is nt exactly tt new but its my 1st timez dere lahz....hahhaha....i dunoe wat its called!!...inova ahz?....hmmm...its was reli big!!....but 2 tingz disappoint mi~~dere is no resting areas wiv new chairs 4 mi 2 sit!!(MY HOBBY(^o^)...i love 2 test out chairs!!...muhahaa...all chairs in shopping centre, alll chairs in my frenz hs, n all chairs in ikea etc LOL)...n da toilets dere r in super bad condition too!!....beri smelly lehz!!*faint*...
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aiyaz heck!!....hahahaha da main pt is~we hav FUN!!(^^)....

(for beta fotox resolution muz go FB)

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BaObEi NiEcE*20+21 Sep

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spent da rest of my public holidaez playing wiv her!!.....muhahahaha...she damn cutez+love 2 play wiv my lappiz!!....she saw mi using tis headset while watching shows online so she keep bugging mi 2 let her try....but obviousli i cant coz she ll spoil it eventualli (YES~she is beri "deadly de dun underestimate a kid!!)....

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so while i returned fm da toilet i oreadi saw her wiv da headset on n looking at my com lik sum impressive biz woman lik tt!!!...(see pix below)..

wahahahha damn cutez!!....coz she put on herself so it was lik not put properli n all ovr da plc but she stil put on a beri serious expression lik she reli noe wat she is doing lik tt!!....wahahha...damn funniz, i juz cant get angry wiv her, i ll end up laughing!!...
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da nxt daez she saez she is "helping" my mom hanging out da washed laundry but she is actualli playing wiv da pegs.....hahahhaa....she is beri "kae po" kidz coz eveyting she oso wanna noe+everyting she oso wanna "help"...LOL~

ohz~i juz *LOVE* her!!(^-^)....

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DiNnEr @ DeLiFrAnCe*23 Sep

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went dinner-ing wiv kristine aft sch 2 sorta celebrate da self-declared "start" of our recess week!!...muhahaha....we went delifrance coz i saez tt i missed a choco desert *Molten Chocolate Cake* beri beri beri much which i hav nt eaten 4 lik 3yrs!!!!!!...hahahhaa...

i cant rmb da name of da desert wen i was descibing 2 dem so i called it da chocolate-oosh coz da desert is lik wen u cut open da choco cake, alottaz hot liquid choc ll oosh out!!....n it was damn nicez!!*heaven*....+reasonably priced ($6.90)oso!!....ur shld try sumtimez!!...hehehe...

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StUdY-tImEx @ IMM BK*25 Sep

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muhahaha....yup! we r supposed 2 study..........~but damn! ahyu predicted correctly everytimez~....we actualli spent da whole daez chatting awaez in BK!!!....wahahahahaha!!!!....dere is juz so mani tingz 2 chat bout i oso dunoe y!!....whahaha...tt's y i love ur ps+ahyu!!!!!(^x^).....

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aniwaez while eating da BK yam pie, da yam filling flow out n dropped on my hand n ACTUALLI burnt my hand!!!.....i cant believe it, da filling is THAT hot!!!...but wen its on my tougue its lik nt tt hot lehz....hahaahah i was lik complaining bout it 2 ps (coz it reli hurts n my hand turns red!!) tt dey shld caution mi b4 i eat tt da filling is hot!!...n i feel stupid wen ps spoted tt dere actualli is a caution on da packaging stating tt....

n we laugh lik mad ovr tt i oso dunoe y!!...wahahah we r seriousli damn random n i guess we r too stressed in new uni!!...

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ohz aniwaez i was at suntec ytd nitez~~n i managed 2 hav a glimsp of da F1 race fm super far!!..wahahaha....i was crossing 1 of da suntec bridges wiv xianli n we saw mani pep standing dere so i juz kae po kae po n see too den find out we can actualli see da race fm dere!!...hahaha...but beri blur lahz i oly saw 1 car raced by tt's all...ahhz hw i wish i gt da tix 2 go watch!!!...

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**kessiz notez: Dear God, pls take exceptional good care of laogong ovr dere in philippines coz of da flood.....